Wednesday 30 November 2016

Surrounded...

Surrounded I am..
By people all around..
No wonder why..
I can't fathom my heart's thumping sound!!

Soliloquies are what keep me ticking..
Tiring out after the day's mimicking!!
Mimick a person I am not inside..
Unwillingly I have to...to let the life glide!!

There is a sea of people whom I interact with..
Still hoping...relationship isn't a myth!!
Euphoric it is, every moment I seek new eyes..
With a melancholic heart but ably disguised!!

Venture out, do I with a fresh energy..
Trusting my faith and destiny's synergy!!
Once bitten, twice shy as they say..
Cautious I have to be all the way!!

Embark upon the journey as I do with a smile..
Unaware of the destiny's nasty guile!!
I pour out my soul, I believe in doing..
A decision, I eventually end up ruing!!

For everytime I sulk in the wild..
Hoping this time, the pain would be but mild!!
Disappointed I get when greeted with an encore..
Calling it off again, pursuing no more!!

I lick my wounds, swearing not to dare..
Get tricked again to land up in despair!!
But it's a fallacy that the heart listens..
For it loses out on the eye that glistens!!

Realise do I that I'm a human, end of the day..
And have to take it along, come what may!!

No matter what peeves me around..
Or people for that sake....eventually who surround!!

Thursday 3 November 2016

Shouting Out Loud!!

I sit on the porch in the moonlit night..
Breathing in the calmness of eerie quiet..
Amazed by the sight of silvery guile..
But alas!!
It's the moon and not my beloved's smile!!

Same place..same time..like nothing's changed..
My soul..my heart..has got to be blamed!!
We talked the entire night..
We shared our plight..
It was never gonna end..we committed..
Unaware of the future's might!!

Euphoric it was and we went with the flow..
Afterall..
Moments of happiness is tastier than a lifelong sore!!
Surreal is the word which one can only feel..
Words always fail to unearth the ecstatic zeal!!
Intoxicating it is to let yourself loose..
Stronger than even the most luring booze!!

Her voice was shivering..
The nervousness was palpable..
With mumbling lips..
She played the love-scrabble!!

She giggled and she smiled..
She laughed her heart out..
Immersed in happiness..beyond a single doubt!!
She called out my name..in a funny amorous voice..
Letting the world know that she'd made the right choice!!

Bottled up emotions had found out a way at last..
Yesterday was gone and we'd moved on from the past..
Life could be so beautiful..it could be so amazing..
A rich pasture of grass let out for grazing!!

The dangling curls of her ebony black hair..
Glowing in the dark her glittery eyes' pair..
Rosy cheeks went blushing all out..
With pinky lips all curled in a pout!!

Could see the drowsy eyes..
Sleepy she was..or so I surmised..
To talk was little..to feel was more..
Those sweet nothings and her smiles galore!!
The breath was warm...the smell was fresh..
Face of hers..I wished to caress!!

Drenched in love when we realized it was late..
With music in the ears..who wanted not to be awake!!
Still I pestered, for her to retire..
To live the moments, in her dreams of desire!!

Bet you she obeyed..but only to pretend!!
For I heard her chattering back after a moment of suspend!!
Enjoying was she and enjoying was I..
Without an inkling that the time was to fly!!!

Eight hours at stretch and I was spent..
Engrossed in the silky voice at the other end!!
Riding was she the crest while I rode the trough..
Ploughing through the sea of love, together we towed!!

Get lost in the tempest, did we eventually..
Fading in the lane of memoirs..slowly gradually!!
Never to be it was or so did she think..
Tossing up the emotions at times to the brink!!

She needed a reason to affirm her belief..
Fortunately she got one as a welcome reprieve!!
She did leave the place but she couldn't leave the heart..
How cruel could be destiny to watch us fall apart?!!

A drop from the moistened eyes rolls down my cheek..
With a painful heart moaning out soundless shrieks!!
The agony is unbearable and so is the pain..
Love is so unforgiving and that is the lasting gain!!

Ohh!! Poor heart of mine...
Did you not learn again this time?
Encoring your lust for love..
And now do you ponder what you deserve!!

I see the moon vanish behind the dark clouds..
As I shout out my lungs, in the night loud!!
Depressed I feel now hoping that it's brief..
For I can't stay alone..

Nurturing this grief!!!

Nurturing this grief!!!