Being Human...

There's an air of disappointment..
And it is with myself..
For I have lowered my bar..
But with an utmost dissent!

It is human, I seek solace in..
But I feel so guilty deep within..
Never before had I fathomed alike..
And that being envious of a person's might!

Was taught to love and appreciate success..
Mine or others' without being upset..
More so when the person's been primitive ally..
Immaterial of whether it's a girl or a guy!

A matured head has gnawed into that innocence..
Grazing away gradually a relationship's essence..
I tussle between the expected and the accepted..
For emotions I realize can't be perfected!

Seeking strength and faith from the reality..
I'm at least thinking about the duality..
Knowledge to judge the right and the wrong..
Is the only help I rely upon to dawn!

Factor out humanity and everything can be lucidly explained..
Rational it may sound, which sadly, reality can't sustain!
The only way out it seems..is to accept the "accepted"..
And move on to better the actual "expected"!!